Jesus Didn’t Want the Cross

by | Apr 5, 2026 | Mario Murillo Ministries | 33 comments

He said so Himself

The night before He died. His face pressed into the dirt of Gethsemane. He asked His Father to take the cup away, then said:

“Not My will, but Yours be done.”

That’s not the language of someone who wanted what was coming. But the language of someone choosing obedience over comfort.

We skip past this too quickly. We view the Cross as the intended plan Jesus was excited about. As if He strode toward Calvary with some kind of stoic peace. But Luke says His sweat became like drops of blood. And He asked three times for another way.

There wasn’t one.

The Cross was the Father’s will. But it was not the Son’s desire. And the obedience Christ modeled in the garden is more uncomfortable than most of us will admit. Because it means obedience and desire don’t always point in the same direction.

The God Thing

Go back about two thousand years before that moment in Gethsemane. Abraham has a son. Not just any son, but the son. The one God promised when Abraham was 75 and didn’t arrive until He was 100. There were twenty-five years of waiting and doubting. And there was that detour involving Hagar, before the impossible. Isaac.

Isaac is not just Abraham’s boy. He’s the proof that God keeps His word. Every time Abraham looks at his boy he’s looking at a covenant fulfilled.

Then God says, “Sacrifice him.”

Not ‘give him up,’ or ‘send him away.’ He’d already heard those commands with Ishmael, and it nearly broke him. But this time he was told to kill his son. Then burn him as an offering.

This is most often framed as “Abraham had to sacrifice something he loved.” And that is true. But it’s not the hardest part. The hardest is Abraham had to sacrifice the thing God gave him. The thing that was itself the answer to decades of prayer.

The promise and the command were in direct contradiction. And Abraham had no framework to reconcile them.

Hebrews 11 tells us he reasoned that God could raise Isaac from the dead. But think about that for a minute – it means he wasn’t operating on understanding, but on trust beyond the point where anything makes sense. The only way forward was to obey a God whose instructions had just made His own promise look like a lie.

Now Spread That Out

Put yourself in Jerusalem, around 33 AD.

For generations, Israel had prayed for their promised Messiah. The deliverer. The one who would restore the kingdom, break the occupation, and make everything right again. Then He showed up. He healed the sick and raised the dead. He taught with an authority the Pharisees couldn’t touch. Crowds followed Him by the thousands wanting to make Him King.

And then He died on a Roman cross like a common criminal.

Try to imagine that. You’ve prayed your entire life for God to send the answer. He sends it. You watch that answer walk among you for three years. Then that answer gets nailed to a wooden cross and stops breathing.

God gave the thing they’d been begging for. Then He let it be destroyed in front of them.

The disciples did not process this as the first in a series of phases of a much larger plan. They saw it as a catastrophe. Luke 24:21 records two of them on the road to Emmaus saying, “We had hoped He was the one Who was going to redeem Israel.” Past tense. Had hoped.

They watched the promise die and they went home.

Intersection of Will

Here’s something that should make us uncomfortable.

When we pray, when we plan, when we imagine what God is doing in our lives, we’re only solving for one variable. Ours.

My calling. My family. My ministry. My timeline.

But God is solving for every intersecting story simultaneously. Your obedience doesn’t just affect your life. It affects people you’ll never meet, situations you can’t see, outcomes that won’t materialize for years, or even generations. Abraham’s obedience on Moriah is still shaping theology four thousand years later. He couldn’t know that while he was climbing a mountain with a knife in one hand, and his son in the other.

That’s why our version of events would almost always be the wrong solution. Not because we’re foolish, but because we’re working with a small part of a much larger puzzle. If it were left up to us, we would write an ending that resolves our own tension.

God is writing an ending that resolves the tension for everyone.

And His version often requires the death of our hopes.

What Dies

This is where it gets personal.

For Jesus, the death was literal. For Abraham, it was a willingness for it to be literal. For us, it’s often something else, but no less real.

It might be a ministry you built that God asks you to walk away from. Or a calling you were certain about that suddenly goes silent. A relationship, a church, a career, a version of your life that you were absolutely sure God had authored.

And then He says to let it die. Sometimes at your own hand.

Not because it was wrong. It might be your Isaac. The thing in your life God gave you in fulfillment of a promise. And now He’s asking you to put it on the altar. And you can’t reconcile the promise and the command. You can’t see how the two fit together.

And those around you won’t understand it either. You won’t be able to explain it to them. They’ll likely think you’ve lost your mind. Or that you’re wasting the thing God gave you. Some will say you heard wrong.

Because from every human angle obedience will look like destruction.

You Can’t See it From This Side

Both stories do finally resolve in resurrection. Isaac comes off the altar. Jesus walks out of the tomb.

But neither Abraham nor Israel could see that resolution from inside the obedience. Abraham walked toward Moriah for three days, the whole time believing he was going to kill his son. Jesus sweated blood in a garden, asking for a different way. The people sat for three days with Jesus’ body buried in a tomb.

The resurrection was real, but it was invisible from where they were standing when the obedience cost everything.

I think we want the Easter part without the Friday. We want to see the ending before we agree to the task. We want God to show us the resurrection before we agree to the death.

He usually doesn’t.

What He offers instead is what He offered Abraham and what He offered His own Son.

Himself.

His presence. His character. The track record of a God who has never once broken a promise, even when His instructions looked like He was about to.

The Cross was not Jesus’ will. But He was obedient to the will of the Father. And that obedience produced something no human will could have ever designed or even imagined.

You probably can’t see that from where you’re standing right now. Abraham couldn’t see it from Mount Moriah.

Obey anyway.

33 Comments

  1. Jean

    As Dr Charles Stanley always said “Obey God and leave the consequences to Him”
    Happy Resurrection Sunday

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  2. Joan Hoffmann

    Thank you MARIO. YOU have given me so much hope for me and my walk with GOD. And for my family

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  3. Ron Rupp

    FATHER said to Abraham “now I know ” , HE said the same to YESHUA, and YESHUA called back ” MY GOD, MY GOD why have YOU forsaken ME ” ,knowing now HE had to be 3 days and nights in an atmosphere HE had to experience, not just see, the foulest fifth that only a fallen being had to experience…something HE never knew, totally separated from FATHER…Shalom Shalom

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    • JoAnn Hunt

      Amen brother 🙏

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    • Lauren Pamela Laub

      The glorious redemption: He is Risen! Yes, He is Risen indeed

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  4. Toril DiGuistini

    TRUTH

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    • Mario Murillo

      Larry did a great job!

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      • Bill Mitchell

        Man of God, The Church must pass through the fire to purify the saints in order for the Groom to receive them. They are lukewarm!!!!!

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      • Shara Bueler-Repka

        Yes, he did! Thank you, Mario, for your graciousness in allowing others on your team to fully work in their various gifts. We highly respect your humbleness.

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  5. Bette Bond

    Thank you Mario for this precious article. I cried all the way through it. May God give me (us) grace for all He asks us to do. Your words: “Obedience and desire do not always point the same direction” were so true and wise. It is a hard thing. But, Jesus deserves our all. If we love Him and call Him Lord, we will sign a contract Yes with our names before we know what He asks of us.

    Please pray I discern His Perfect Will and am willing to do it trusting that He knows what is best.

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    • Mario Murillo

      Larry did a great job!

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    • Janice chaquica

      He paid the price for what he did not owe. For a debt we could not pay. There are many things I will not understand this side of heaven. The love of calvery grace given each day. And the way God gives time and more time that non should be lost from his presents. Praying for Boldness for souls.

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  6. Pamela Chapman

    And this is my Resurrection Sunday message as I sit this morning literally unable to move on my own, or with my own plans due to a back-injury diagnosis. I trust God for His timing and always pray His will. Thank you for this encouraging message, Mario. He lives because He lives in us and works through us. May He continue to bless you mightily.

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  7. Revs Jerry and Sonia M Mashek

    Loved the teaching Brother and enjoy you as well Pastor Todd on FIREPOWER weekly!

    Keep 🙏 up your ministry as we you Continue to Prophetically teach the Eklesia God’s Word!

    In HIS Service ✝️ PJ & PS <

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  8. Rose Mary King

    Wow! This is deep truth!

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  9. Tony

    Obedience or Lukewarm Church Attendance, what will it be?

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    • Melinda Garland

      This was confirmation!
      Thank you God!

      Praise God!

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  10. Mark Benassi

    Mario, this is one of your best. I would only like to add that Isaac was an adult when his father took him to Moriah, who also went willingly knowing full well what was happening, and did not complain. What a story.

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    • Mario Murillo

      Mark, thanks for your encouraging words. I did not write this blog. Larry Rutledge is the author. I am sure he appreciates your comment. MM

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  11. Marilyn Knebel

    Thank you for this message. Hit home for me in a special way. I have felt like Job these past 10 years losing many different people and promises not working like I thought they would…no surprise there, right! But I know God is faithful, and He’s not the problem. Your message strengthened what I knew deep down and why though I blow it, I KNOW He is doing it for my good and HIS purposes are what I’m here for, not my own. It is so easy to get wrapped up in our own problems, lost family members, prodigal children and these end time divisions with neighbors and friends. Whole world gone nuts. It’s all about Jesus and the Father’s plan for entire world He died to save. Trust and obey for there is no other way! Cast your cares upon HIM, let go let GOD! Have to die to self. I want the other side of that, resurrection plan the Father has not mine.

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    • Kristin Salzman

      Thank you Marilyn! I’ve felt the exact way you shared so honestly. God bless you in your walk with the Lord as He makes a way where there seems to be no way, equipping you to do the works He planned in advance for you to do (Eph. 2:10) and giving Him all the glory! Philippians 1:6.

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  12. Marybell

    The OBEDIENCE OF FAITH.

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  13. Paula Hodgkins

    This was a great word and I needed to read it today.

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  14. Terry G Dunn

    Think about how long Jesus knew before hand what His future on earth looked like. Is it possible as a 12 year old boy in the temple that He knew he wouldbe crucified? Imaginine the heavy weight of that on a 12 year old boy. ALL FOR US!

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  15. Pam

    When Jesus was in anguish in the garden, He also knew He would for once be separated from His father.

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  16. Susan Louk

    Dear Larry, so Beautiful. Thank you so much. Also want to thank you for the tent meetings sharings. So appreciate them. A Blessed Easter to you & family & to Mario & family & support team. Love & prayers for all, Susan

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  17. Elizabeth VanSteenhouse

    Great word! Thank you for sharing this. Needed to be reminded that personal desire and comfort don’t always align with stepping out in faith (obedience). Trusting Him with all our mind, body, soul is key. Leave the consequences to Jesus. Don’t overthink it. Just believe Him and walk through the doors He opens.🚪

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  18. Cathy Turner

    Wow! What an awesome perspective to consider. The Lord asks us to lay it all down and trust Him, no matter the cost. Thank you for sharing such a profound view of the sacrifice that someday we may be asked to make.

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  19. Marleen

    Thank you, Larry.
    Very powerful and thought/prayer provoking message.
    God bless!

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  20. Eric Hardin

    This message reminds me how obedience at its heart is counter to oftentimes my own desires.And the desires of the american christian church at large. For too long, I lived a life thinking obedience to God meant blessing. And a favor and anointing over all my work, and i’m thinking, how sometimes obedience means walking through the valley and through the fire.So that I can learn obedience and learn that the greatest gift and goal in my life is his presence.And his glory and not his blessings. Do I obey god because he is worthy because of the cross alone? Or do I obey and walk in faith?In the hopes, he will reward me with healing.Or wealth? Do I love him?Or do I love his gifts?And obedience to him is just a means to an end?

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  21. Suzanne Bonne´

    Wow. Thank you, this was so powerful. A definite keeper.

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  22. Vincent Vitiello

    That was a powerful revelation! Thank you Mario.

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  23. Mark and Susan Dubois

    Thank you brother Mario; thank you!

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